I have long been a "creative" person–but I feel like I can't create things with a pencil or paintbrush. My people end up looking less like portraits and more like something Picasso would see. My landscapes look like a 10 year old scrawled them. My crutch is the computer–design, typography, etc. But, I am so drawn to the work of Kelly Rae Roberts more because of her attitude and openness than even her aesthetic–although, it is growing on me, too.
Because I have such a great love of the library, I put her book on hold and anxiously awaited the email indicating that is was just sitting in the stacks ready for me to pick up. I have been so inspired by the pages within…but have found myself unwilling to actually drag the supplies out and dive in. It is a little more of that failed perfectionist part of my personality that I sense being refined out of my character. (Praise the Lord for that, too, because I see those traits in my oldest son and I pray that he learns the err of that early in life!!).
A few weeks ago, I was randomly invited to a painting group that meets monthly–and these are women that are Painters with a capital P. I wanted to quickly claim that I don't paint, don't know how, am not good, etc. But, instead, I decided to tag along anyway. So, this Thursday I will be meeting with a bunch of Painters with a capital P–and hoping that I don't stick out too much.
This is one of those missions that I hope will challenge me to grow into a more whole and healthy woman. I need these sorts of things to make me uncomfortable and gently shove me out of my comfy little nest. Even though I am not serving anyone or making anyone feel more loved this week–I am working to help myself feel more loved–which in turn will fill up my tank to overflow and spill out to my family and friends.
In fact, I'll have these missions sprinkled in quite often–because a lot of my personality is unafraid to serve others, but is often afraid to take time for myself. I need to push my own envelope a little and do some of the adventures I have been putting off while incubating babies and then feeding and caring for them. Please don't think I'm selfish. :) But, even if you do–that's okay. Sometimes you need to go on your own adventures in order to effectively love others. Hope you'll find your own adventure this week. :)